Tuesday, April 13, 2010

My obsessive compulsive creative need

This how my parents describe my sudden creative outbursts....I have been trying to put in words the force that drives me to these spurts, the effort led to this post...

There are days when I feel trapped in a web that traps my creative energy, limits my creative vision & pulls my creative urge into a meaningless bottomless darkness...I. dread these days & am more scared of getting trapped in this web than, I'd be of failure or disappointment or even death....'cuz when at the end of such days I manage to break through the web & walk back into the world of my creativity, I feel life running through me, rejuvenating me. It's like I have been given another chance to live, another chance to celebrate the existence of my being, by leaving behind my writings, pictures, sketches, collages, dances...so that even when I cease to be, people can see through my eyes the world as I lived in, the world of who I was, the world I loved, the world I wished for in these works. The world that was mine.

7 comments:

Punkster said...

Very nice doc!
You are so much like me!
Flying high in the skies of creativity is all I want to do, All my life.
It makes me glad to be alive!
No matter how Good or Bad I am.

Lost Thoughts said...

Creativity always shines throught....it might have to struggle out at times but like the sun always comes out from behind the clouds so will your creativity. Btw you are too young to be talking about leaving things behind.

ani_aset said...

This is what happens when you work non stop :) time to relax both body and mind before you embark upon doing something.

meeta said...

@Punkster I donot wish to fly high in the sky of creativity, i just wish to fly in the sky of creativity painting it with my own thoughts & ideas.

meeta said...

@Surubhi haha..life is a bubble surubhi...i think i know it better being a doctor, so want to make the most of now, the moment that i have.

meeta said...

@aniruddh most of my creative impulses come from work..but yea maybe i'll relax & sleep around for a while.

Adee said...

just relax, sleep for 12 hours on a stretch n put the pen n paper away for a day. n yeah, we all hav to die, so y bother wid it now :)